Sunday, May 20, 2012

May 20, 2011

I can't believe it's been a year.

365 days have already passed.

And I want to let you know, that during those 365 days, you pop up in my mind every single day. Sometimes for an hour, sometimes for a minute. Either way, I'm always   t  h  i  n  k  i  n  g    a  b  o  u  t   y  o  u . 

I don't want to believe it, I don't want to forget.

Lately, my mind has been forgetting more and more about you. But I'm not letting it. I'm finding myself forcing to keep you in my mind, cause I don't want to forget...

Is that weird?

I don't expect you to do the same.

But I wonder...




If you remember,


I always thought back to a year ago when I still had you. But now.. when I think back, you're not there.

When you were mine.

And as I move forward, memories keep fading and I'm struggling to hold on to it longer. 

I think of the day that we will bump to each other again. 

Face to face....

My heart races.

Although I just saw you last August in the streets, and a glimpse of your car passing by in September.

Haven't heard from you since . 

I want to know how it feels like to have a conversation with you again.

No matter how awkward, no matter how  h e a r t - b r e a k i n g .

I just want to talk to you, to see your face.

But I admit, I'm scared for that day. I hope I would be ready for it. I hope I won't cry. I hope I will be gorgeous that day, I hope I would have become a fantastic independent person. 

Just so I can show you,

What you have lost.


  1. Love this post...I'm sure you will be gorgeous (you already are) and independent girl when "that day" come.


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